Stop thinking that God is upset with you. You can read one chapter in the bible and satan will whisper you should have read 2. You can begin to pray then your mind wanders and satan will tell you you should have done better. He wants to make you feel like you are never enough, but you are just enough for God. God knew how long it would take to gain a relationship with you before He even began to pursue you. He knew every wrong turn you would take. Every stumble that would trip you up. He is not surprised by your actions and He is not mad at you. Gods grace is an ocean, dive in.